here we go again.

This is how i feel about fashion today. We had a class with Angela on the skull project and everyone got quite worried when we were shown example sketchbooks on how much work we should be aiming to complete bu the end of a project, 20 pages a day sounds crazy! I was sat with Angie waiting for Angela to come round and see us individually and we were both having a down day wondering why we'd chosen this course when it feels like we dont seem to be excelling in it, i felt like when i left leeds id done it so i could enter a fashion course and remember why i loved it and be simply amazing and loved (stupid i know) but since starting here ive coped alot better with the 'living away from everyone' than i did in leeds but ive felt like im struggling more than ever with the course. Last year because i didnt care nothing phased me, no grades mattered too much to me but then this year everything matters to me ! I felt like we've been swapped quite a bit through teachers and been given varying feedback ive never been too sure whether im on the right track, but when Angela looked at my sketchbook she said my drawing skills had potential which made me very happy; i know it sound small and insignificant but i really dont think im that strong a drawer, ive definetely gotten better all the drawing skills i had to practise in Leeds made me improve as much as i didnt want to participate ! But hearing it from someone is so nice ! Also getting feedback on how we should be playing with silhouettes on the mannequin has helped so much and i feel like even though work is piling up i feel excited for fashion ! Its amazing what some nice words can do to brighten days up, i cant wait for summer its so lovely outside ! I can feel butterflys in my tummy everytime i walk outside at the moment, i feel my happiest and most inspired when its like this ! But it is making me feel quite homesick which i think has been whats been making me feel less motivated lately so today was a big boost !